What exactly does that mean? Can it be as simple as the statement sounds? Is it even a choice we're allowed to make? C'mon, are you freaking kidding me?
The world can throw so many challenges our way, making survival seem like a lofty goal, let alone LOVING our days. What gives here???
Here's the news I am excited to share with you...
It's TOTALLY possible and I know because I created it in my own life.
The ironic part of how I came to live a life I love is that I was living a life from Hell!
At a time when life brought me to my knees with a clustf@*k of financial devastation, divorce and a heaping side of complete identity crisis- this dark, depressed place is exactly where the seeds of my dream life were planted.
At my lowest point, the only thing I wanted to do was sleep. My bed was safe and my body numb as I slumbered underneath my heavy down comforter. Closing my eyes was my favorite pastime.
I existed in this zombie state for some time. I cared for my children on auto-pilot and I smiled when I had to...making sure the outer, public picture quietly said, "I'm fine. We're fine." Nothing to see here.
At some point, my brain seemed less on fire and allowed an occasional pause of its frequent reminders of what a failure I was. My heart slowed its relentless pounding and a small voice emerged.
The small voice said to me, "Life is passing you by. You are missing it. Time to get up, get out and DO something."
"What is the something?" I asked. "What can I possibly do? Look at this mess of my life."
The small voice grew louder. "Do what you love. The small voice asked a question. What is it that you love?"
What do I love? What do I love??
Oh hell. I hadn't though about loving my life in a long time. My focus had been on NOT feeling, not thinking and not making choices. I did my best to just survive each day. Could I really love my life that had weighed me down so heavily?
I can't recall the exact moment, but right about then something changed, something clicked. I made a decision. It wasn't easy but I knew it was necessary and I knew it was right.
That random Tuesday. That's when I decided to start a daily practice. It simply began with this thought: I am worthy of living a life I love.
I started writing a list. "THINGS I LOVE"- written on the top of my journal page. At first, it was challenging. I wouldn't allow myself to go there. Then I started writing. Each time I wrote something on the page, the next thought jumped into my mind. It suddenly felt SO wonderful and freeing as I allowed myself to search my mind and soul and ask myself the question, "What do I love?"
I asked myself that same question every day for a month and wrote the answers every day in my journal.
These were my first baby steps.
These are the words I wrote on those life changing journal pages.
"I love being around people who make me laugh."
"I love being of service to other people."
"I love reading books that inspire me."
"I love hiking with friends."
"I love being in a relationship that feels like I'm home."
"I love treating my body like a temple."
"I love adventures!"
With every answer, I became more clear on what I LOVED.
This clarity pulled me out of the claws of desperation and anxiety, literally one minute and one day at a time.
I cherished each answer. I held them up as my personal values for my life. It felt SO powerful to be the one deciding what was a priority and what wasn't. I was definitely sitting up a little taller and walking with more confidence in my own powers. Can you feel the awesomeness of that?!? From feeling like an epic failure to feeling like I could live a life a loved...freaking outstanding. If if I can do it, so can you.
It felt electric. I felt the beauty and gift of life rising up inside me. Gratitude entered my life. Life and love were showing up and I could feel the energy being reclaimed by every cell in my body!
Epic failure is such a gift. No really, I'm not messing with you by saying that. "Failure" is just another option to embrace transformational growth.
Failure forces us to dig deep.
Failure pushes us to go beyond our "limits."
Failure summons courage we never thought we had.
Failure gives the gift of empathy on a deeper, more meaningful level.
Broken hearts, fractured spirits, devastating failures- each one contains miraculous gifts.
All it takes is some magical mindfulness to recognize your gifts. To turn failure upside down. We can do it. It starts with baby steps.
Your daily practice, your rituals, the decision to implement your "things I love" list into your life....it all leads to LIVING A LIFE YOU LOVE.
A life you love is yours to claim.
Start asking yourself the question, "What do I love."
Get a Journal.
Write your answers daily on each page.
Start implementing those answers into your daily habits, routines & rituals.
Start living each "love" daily.
Live a life you love.
For more information on how to transform your life and begin living a life you love, visit my coaching page, www.jennaknudsen.com and sign up for a free coaching session.